Millie Colori

I finished my sisters scarf. Two row Millie Colori scarf. She saw it at Thanksgiving and she said that she would like one. I didn't say a thing. I know you are not supposta knit someones present infront of them but I didn't have anything else to knit. Maybe the sun will come out tomorrow so I can take pics.
I moved my yarn to the gallery. Get ready I am going to have a 'sale', I will send out an email but it will be on the gallery crawl night. I have to come up with a way to price it. It will be cash only.
Knit on

two row scarf

I started my sisters Two row scarf. I love to watch the colors develop. I am using Lang's Millie Colori. Right now I am using just two colorways. I might add in an additional colorway...just gonna see how it goes. I worked four rows on my shawl today. I decided what to knit my Mom also. I bought it in Asheville when T and I went up for my birthday. I love that shop, except they tend to have yarn that is really fuzzy. I am more traditional in my yarn choices. They carry good brands.
Well, tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I will go to my sisters with the boys. I am hoping everyone will behave. Everyone try to get some knitting in.
Knit on,
Maria

Yesterday

Yesterday was a blur. I was more distracted than anything. I got very little knitting accomplished. I am decreasing on a felt hat. Yes, more knitting for the gallery. That cheap knitting has to stop. I need to push that envelope...push the style and the price point. See where that can go!
And I have got to come up with an idea what I am going to knit my friends for the Holidays. Something snuggly. I know the yarn I just don't know what. Well, that gives me something to search for. Damn, I love the internet! What a wealth of information. And the pictures.
Ahh, yes. When will I see those pictures?

Knit on!

Sunday Knitathon

I have plans today.... I plan to knit. Knit till my arms hurt, knit till my wrists don't want to move, knit till my fingers ache. And with each stitch I will listen. Silence is not a comfortable place for me. My head starts to go in wild directions. I want my knitting to silence my craziness, allowing peace. As soon as I am done typing I am going to work on Icarus. Tony and Dominic are at church and Anthony is comfortable with playing alone.
The weather today is going to be wonderful. Enjoy. OHHH maybe I will sit outside and knit.
Go Panthers!

Smiling and Breathing

Promise kept!

A Pirate, A gangster and a Fairy walk in to a bar....

realize it is too crowded and leave. They hail a cab go to another bar...seeing the line to get in half way around the block decide to go back to the hotel have a drink at the bar, then go to the room and watch the Food Network.

These are the only pictures I got....but rumor has it someone else has pictures. Wonder when I will get to see them?

Halloween in Hot 'Lanta was not the great adventure that was expected.

Thank you

Thank you for understanding.

Work Part 2 revised

Tonight has been harder than ever imagined.
I was glad to see familar faces.
I saw into eyes... and it must have been a reflection of myself. I saw hurt amplified. Is that what my reflection looks like?
I ask that you not loose hope. I have not...yet. If you loose hope then it will be gone. All of my friends please don't loose hope in me.

I hope my notes help.

Working part 2

I made it thru my first half of the day. Went to my appointment. and made it home in time to get the boys off the bus. Now I head back to the gallery in an hour. Let's see if I can smile. I am thinking that I need to keep this blog just to knitting...what do you think?

Working

Today will be a test of my ability to smile thru... the continued chaos that is my current life.
Making it better is going to be a test. A personal test of stregnth of heart, trust, and finding internal happiness. All of those elements must stay in place to make this better.

On a lighter note....I am excited about the gallery crawl this evening. If you have time stop by I am making a new appetizer. I have forgotten the name it has pecans, cream cheese and olives! Food is better with cheese. And Olives....what more can I say? Olive Juice.....with a splash of Vodka! That is just perfect!

Working

Today will be a test of my ability to smile thru....hurt.

Two in One day

I have spent the better part of today thinking, writing and trying to find a solution to a very difficult and heartbreaking problem. I am still looking. I am becoming too tired to think anymore.
I love to hear others be positive. In some small way it lifts me, yet after they are done I fall.
A blanket of fog has settled in my mind and I can not see too far ahead. It makes me wonder if there is even anything ahead. Is there more fog? The end of the road? or just blackness?

I might have to post again today....am I going crazy?

Shop

Well ladies, it looks like the chance of my shop opening is getting slimmer and slimmer (unlike my ass). I can't afford to buy a place. Hell, I don't know if I can afford to rent a place. I know that hour by hour my dream is fading in to this endless rain we are having.

Friday will be nice. The gallery is having their monthly gallery crawl from 6-9pm. Stop by the gallery if you have a minute. You can see the wonderful space Artworks on Main has provided.
Then after a long day at work I will drink a glass of wine, take a bath, and go to sleep.

For those who follow....there is no more hurricane. Just calm after the storm.
As Scarlett O'Hara said "Tomorrow is another day"

pandora

Hope was the only thing left in the box. What do you do when that is gone? That is the question I am asking my self.

What do you do when you hurt the one who loves you the most?

'Look to the stars. Look in the clouds. You will see me'

I didn't know what to title this post so as much of my life it will remain blank.
Here is a little about knitting....

I have been a felt knitting fool lately. I am getting bags ready for the gallery. I need to keep at least 5 available. I finished the clogs and I will be making a color card to take up there so that customers can special order if they want. I can not make clogs to have in stock because of the size problems. I don't know if they will sell but I know that as I am wearing my clogs they are the best thing I have ever knit! I have to start knitting for the holidays after this week.

My silk lace shawl has been on hold AGAIN because of my work knitting. One day I will get back to it. Will I be like Mr. Magorium, from 'Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium'? I will die when it is finished, just like when he ran out of shoes?

I started a shawl last night. I got the book "Crazy Lace" by Myra Wood. I have loved her work and have wanted to take a class from her for years but I have not gotten the chance. Myra is in my opinion the foremost expert in free form knitting and crochet. I have been amazed at the variety of yarn and colors that seem to blossom from her hands. I tend to follow patterns but I have never been too upset when I have made a mistake. I have always found ways to correct my 'mistake' and move on. Never dwelling too much about it. I, as always, have never given it to my artsy- 'crazy' side and just knit what ever. So I will try.

My project: It is from the hand dyed yarn that was given to me from Linda. Ashley got some of the same yarn and she found out that it is a Silk-cotton blend. Who knew? I love knitting with it, so I deep down knew it had to be more than just a cotton. It is a triangle shawl-or mini shawl depending on how much yarn I have. I was going to knit a scarf out of this colorway for my hairdresser but now it will be come a shawl. I will have pictures soon. I need the shawl to get a bit larger to show the pattern.

If you don't know what "Crazy Lace" is I will give you a brief explanation. It is a self help book for those that are pattern minded. Myra allows you to do anything you want to your project and gives you simple but effective guideline to make sure your project turns out as you expected. She gives you the freedom to make mistakes and fix them with out the pain of frogging. At the same time she also says that if you choose to frog then go right ahead. I have just picked a chart out of the many in the book and just injected it right in to the shawl. Not following a preplanned set of charts and just allowing the pattern to come to me as I knit is just plain fun. No matter what chart I follow this project will look good because I am following the basic pattern for the triangle and I am letting the charts come to me. It is symmetrical so this allows my obsessive/compulsive side to rest and my creative side is just knitting with out fear.

Now on to my personal side of this blog...
The last word of that last sentence is my Kryptonite. Fear. It has struck at me again. Paralyzing me. Making me question all that knew. Can I make the changes necessary for happiness? Will these changes bring happiness. Can I let go of the fear and look past it? It seems to be a wall. That is too large to cross. And I can not see the other side. I don't hear anything from the other side, those sounds that I have heard have been silenced by the nay sayers. Again I am talking in riddles but it is easier... it helps me to think about what is inside my head to make it come out on this virtual paper. I think in so many ways the book 'Crazy Lace' will help me over come this fear. To know that I can move forward, that I don't have to frog back---not just because I don't have to but I don't have the option. That something wonderful can still appear, That my life can still be wonderful! That all the mistakes that could not be corrected and rectified will still have a purposeful place in my soul. That is a good feeling.


And some final thought from Jimmy Buffett
Coast of Carolina, License to Chill 2004

'And the walls that won't come down
We can decorate or climb
Or find some way to get around
Cause I'm still on your side
From the bottom of my heart.'

One day Jimmy, I will meet you and I will know what to say.

updating from...

My phone. How cool is this. I am loving my new job at Artworks on main in downtown Mooresville. Getting tons of information I plan on using when my yarn shop finally opens. I am trying to secure a location at this time as well as money. I am looking for a live-work location so that I can still be available for my boys. I have a fellow knitter that is willing to work for peanuts! And yarn of course. I have changed my thoughts about the yarns I want to carry. I want to offer specialty yarns. The kind that make you dream. Sweet dreams.
Soft and luscious. With all the changes in my like yarn seems to be the only comfort that I have. And sharing my love of fiber with other is what I want to do.
Knit on.